Dunno exactly why, but it's much easier to reflect in terms of twos rather than threes (in terms of 'one' is surprisingly challenging).
In me I can see two people:
1. An earnest and serious crusader for things that are good. He loves freedom and thinks that exercising agency for the better of self and others is the prime task of living. He thinks that if you're not learning you better be doing. If you do neither for an any extended (more than 15 minutes) period of time, he gets very frustrated.
2. A dark, circumspect jester who worries that if something isn't mockable, it has great potential for evil in it. He will make jokes that often go misunderstood. Often, he manages to be funny. He is constantly self-reflective and concerned with the present. If you choose hypocrisy, he will keep after you. If you don't, he will try to point out the difficulty of your undertaking.
I don't know which one of these poles I should try to orient myself towards. I like #1 a lot better, but I know I can't keep him up all the time. I just don't have a thing I want enough to be him all the time. #2 alienates people when they are uncertain but at least allows for consistency.
Difficult!
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